I haven't read through many of the posts yet, so am not sure if someone out there has the same problem or not. If so please forgive me. Since high school I've put a lot of emphasis on staying thin. Up until about my 40s I would try to eat as little as possible. I convinced myself that the food had to be really awesome to be worth the calories. Even though I never counted calories. I never made myself vomit because I didn't really have a gag reflex. In college I began dabbling with weight lifting. There were a few times I was happy with how I looked. I still ate at little as possible. I find it amazing that I had energy to lift with so little fuel. As I got older my body didn't like starving itself anymore so I began to eat a little more. I'd lift for a while and then stop. When the scale got to a number above the magic number I wanted to be I'd panic and try eating less. Now I am 50 ,have a personal trainer and am trying to eat healthy. I have a negative body image. I've decided maybe my body doesn't have the weight to lose so I am trying to build muscle. I want to look toned. Problem now is there are very few things that are healthy that I like. I'm having trouble eating enough to get into the shape I want to. I've never really paid attention to food because I've always tried to avoid it. How do I find healthy things that I like. Also as a side not, when we eat out I am never satisfied that the food tastes good enough to warrant the expense. This post seems so scattered and chaotic. I hope some of it makes sense. I'm hoping someone has some suggestions.