I'm 17. My life has consisted of my parents forcing food down my throat to try and make me normal. My mom eventually just gave up and stopped trying but that doesn't stop her from constantly putting me down about it. I accept who I am and I know I can change it. I don't know how though.

I learned about SED about a year ago. It made sense to me when I read it.

My diet consists of literal junk food. I've tried eating other foods. I've tried forcing it down my throat, but it never works. It always ends the same. Either gagging, throwing up, or major stomach pains for about ten minutes.

It's not that I hate the taste. I can eat hot wing flavoured chips all day, but I would rather die before I even took a bite of a hot wing.

I hate the consistency. The feel. The look. I can't even look at mac n cheese without getting slightly nauseous.

My mom sent me to a therapist last year, but I stopped attending because she wanted to tackle other problems instead like my fear of public speaking.

I want to get rid of this. I need to for my health. No one can eat cheese pizza and peanut butter sandwiches and live past 40 at the most without getting diabetes (or so my mom tells me. She's a nurse). I can accept that I have this. I really can. What I cannot accept is that I will probably die before I will eat a salad.

I just want to be happy. I want to lose weight. I want to go to a family meal and eat something other than a plate of fries or a few pieces of bread. I want help. I need help. My family doesn't listen...