I'm 26 years old, I have been a picky eater since I was around 11 years old, I would hide food, throw it in the garbage, etc,. Before being 11, I don't remember much but my family says that I used to eat everything. I didn't realize how bad my picky eating has gotten until recently when I went to a trip for two weeks at a friend's house. I was so hungry after a long fly, and the food looked fine but once I tasted it, I didn't like it at all, my stomach just closed and I had the hardest time eating it, I didn't finish it. So I thought, maybe it just tastes bad, but it happened the next day and after that to the point that I stopped eating what was made all together. I didn't even like the food ordered from the restaurants, so I started to make my own food, I can only imagine how bad it looked to be making your own food in a house that isn't yours, I was hungry and wasn't thinking much about that at the time.
I don't remember much being done by my guardian when I was little and I didn't like the food aside from making me feel guilty about the ones who don't have anything to eat. Back then, I would stare at the food think about the less fortunate ones, but I still couldn't eat it. My somach closes, but I am hungry, but the food taste bad. Even sometimes when I cook, the food still tastes bad, and everybody thinks that I am just very impolite for no eating what was made. And I can't help but feel disrespected by family members when they start criticising my no eating along with the lectures that everybody had eaten food that they didn't like. Now, I'm very conscious that the food isn't bad, that it just taste bad to me, I am constantly waiting to be extremely hungry to eat and hoping that it would make it easier, it doesn't, and I get sick, Gastritis being on the top. It is hard and I wish I could just eat whatever and feel satisfied. I am currently draining having to take another trip to visit a family member. Chances are that I won't like the food, higher chances of being shamed. At least now I know that I am not the only one with this problem. Sorry for the rant.