Ive been crying today over my problem and wonder if anyone out there is like me. Glad to find a site that may be some help to me. Im having a really hard time due to my many fears with food and with Thanksgiving coming up its really been hard. Not only do i have fears of food but i have fears of eating food made by others, fears of eating off silverware, plates, drinking out of glasses, fear of using pot, pans and utinsils that have been used to make foods i dont like or have been put in Kitchen sink. I wish mine was just about food. Being like this is embarrasing and the anxiety and panic from it at times feels like im dying inside. I dont know who to talk to because no one understands me or the pain inside from being like this. I dont eat anything anyone touches or makes. I remember as a girl at school i would throw away whatever my mom packed on my luch that wasnt pre packaged. I never would never eat school lunches either. Im a strict vegetarian/ vegan and get grosdef out very easily!
My boyfriend has invited me to his moms house for thanksgiving and i have been crying cause i told him id go but what am i gonna do around the table for dinner? I wont eat anything thats been made nor will i eat off the plate, use the silverware or drink out of the glass. Ive only went to one other thanksgiving and that was 16 yrs ago at my ex husbands families house. It was a horrible time. I was laughed at and the jokes at me were not funny. I remember feeling as if my insides were crying. I was so upset. I want all of these fears, phobias or whatever it is to go away. I just want to beable to go to peoples houses or out to dinner or just beable to eat anywhere without being a big embarrassment! Any comments would be appreciated! Thanks
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wrote on November 18, 2017
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Admin Reply by: Bob
Sounds like you may have ARFID to some degree. But to me it appears that you have major OCD issues. I would bet many others have told you that before. OCD treatments can help but the condition from what I have seen over the years can really be difficult to conquer. I like you have never had a good Thanksgiving day in my entire life. Most of the time I have always found a way to avoid the big dinner at all cost and show up later to share some time with my family members and loved ones. Your boyfriend has got you trapped into a terrible situation for you. You should express to him why you would rather not be trapped into sitting at a diner table with lots of people you have never met who probably will say some very hurtful things to you. And if he says you can bring your own food, plates, silverware etc. Thet would probably be just as bad. No easy answer here. In my case I'm taking my wife on a 7 day cruise this year to avoid the family diner. If your boyfriend is not understanding about your issues you might think about a new boyfriend. Good luck to you. I really do feel your pain. Our lives can be a daily bag of stress.
