It is a great relief to find that I am not alone. It was luck that I found this site that does not judge me for something I cannot control. A friend on Facebook happened to post a link about picky eating being a disorder, it seemed to be my calling. As I read it, I finally discovered the name of what has plagued me ever since I could remember: Selective Eating Disorder. It is disappointing to know that not much is known about it, yet there is still research going on. I have seen at least four different therapists who have tried to help me, but to no avail. Gatherings with friends or family create extreme anxiety due to food being a main source of social functions. I consistently go out to restaurants having checked the menu online to make sure they serve something for me. I have told a select few of my close friends about it (each resulting in tears for me) with a sort of judgmental response. I have always felt ashamed and embarrassed by my lack of variety. As a 20 year old, I love being in college in a different state meeting new people; however, next semester all of my friends are going abroad to Europe leaving me behind. I would be lying if I said that food was not the main reason I won't be going abroad. It is because of the unfamiliarity of cuisine. I hate feeling left out and feeling like a child who is too selfish and stubborn to just taste/try something. My diet is limited to some fruits, chicken, peanut butter, bread, french fries, waffles, cheese pizza (preferably without sauce), and a plain burger. I will admit to having tried a few things in the past few years including eggs and salads, but have not been consistently part of my eating habits yet. And trying those things was very stressful. Aversion of food is my main struggle in life that makes me feel guilty for maintaining. I wish I knew how to cook and prepare something. I wish I was able to expand my habits and see what I am missing out on. And I especially wish I did not avoid spending time with friends or family because of this phobia. I am happy to find a community that accepts me and can help me. Thank you very much.