After a not so wonderful encounter with broccoli last night, I have been feeling all kinda of weird today in reflecting on my dinner last night. My boyfriend attempted to cook me my second meal with a vegetable (I hate vegetables, and have since I can remember). The first meal he made we had Brussel sprouts, that was ok and pretty tasty actually. I pretended not to feel the slight unfavorable texture between my teeth and was able to eat quite a few. WIN! Broccoli on the other had was not so good. I could hardly take a bite and the ones I did had me almost gagging... I have had severe texture issues with food forever. Last night I felt awful at my inability to eat a flipping bite of BROCCOLI!! I was embarrassed and it didn't help that my boyfriend got frustrated with me in difficulties with eating food, foods, most foods.

I am grateful for his effort in trying to expand my palette but this is something I have been dealing with for decades now and if any change is going to happen its not going to happen with one meal... and it definitely won't change with lack of patience.

If I didn't have to eat every day, I wouldn't. If I could just have a juice or take a pill to suffice I would. But theres no magic drink or pill to replace the value of food. So instead.... I eat the handful of things I actually like and I cycle through them until I get bored. The tough days are when none of your 5 go to meals sound good. then enters pizza or any other junk food.

Most meals for me consist of any combination of the following: chicken, turkey, salmon, eggs, beans, rice, bacon, popcorn, chips, ice cream, turkey sandwiches, PB&J... I don't mind the flavor of onions or tomatoes but hate the texture of them. I gag eating lettuce so mostly all salads are out (I don't know why Brussel spouts don't affect me the same as most other leafy greens, hmm) I will say I have found a mixed greens smoothie with peanut butter thats pretty good (no leaf texture!), I like potatoes and yams only if they are roasted with not a lot of mushy potato, and crunchy outside or skins or bacon bits and cheese on top to mask the texture of smashed potato, and I hate mashed potatoes or anything that texture. Yogurt I can only eat with granola and fruit, not by itself. Any foods the texture of yogurt, pudding, or mashed potatoes are pretty much a no go. I HATE most vegetables, especially: carrots, celery, green beans, peas, cauliflower, squash. I love fruit but not melons. I like avocados but only on a sandwich as a spread, cannot eat plain.
PLUS, I'm also gluten free and mostly dairy free (all but cheese, can't give it up but I'm picky about what types as some don't hurt as much)

I will say that since being a kid I have expanded the foods I eat. My options are still limited though and eating with these "issues" is difficult and mentally exhausting. It can be so embarrassing and often times people just think I'm acting like a picky 5 year old. I just wish people were more understanding of how difficult it is for me just to eat a meal. I wish I just liked food, and could eat anything anywhere, try new things, new flavors and actually enjoy rather than feel sick or scared or nauseous.

Thankful for finding this group. I just stumbled upon this page while doing some reattach about why I'm so picky after last nights mini meltdown. Hope to learn more and find some others to relate to. Thanks for reading..