I read about ARFID around a year ago, and it gave me the most unique feeling to know that what I deal with is a real thing. I'm almost 23, but since a very young age, I've been physically unable to force myself to try new things. I will gag at the idea of any vegetable, and most fruits. Certain textures will give me a panic attack. People have laughed at me and called me a picky eater, but I know it isn't just picky eating. It's a real disorder and I can't help it. I always tell myself I'll start trying one new thing per week or per month and I just can't do it. I eat mainly chicken, burgers (plain), plain tacos with just meat, plain pepperoni or cheese pizza, pb&j, cereal, and other unhealthy junk foods and snacks. I'm really overweight because of this and I need to change. I need serious help and I can't afford any treatment. It genuinely terrifies me that I may be like this forever. I have such a terrible relationship with food, it depresses me endlessly.