So happy I found this site! I'm 20 years old and I've been like this since I was a little kid. My family always gets angry and yes, I understand, they do it because they worry about me, but they just can't see how hard I'm actually trying.
Yesterday I went to my best friend's house for dinner. We were supposed to eat french fries but they ended up buying a pizza. I couldn't pretend I wasn't hungry so I forced myself to eat a little, but I felt so sick that I ended up going home early. And anxiety has not left me since then.
Lately I have no appetite at all. Maybe my body is tired of eating the same things everyday. I only eat red meat, rice, potatoes, bread, chocolate cookies and milk. I always force myself to eat bananas, apples and carrots to get a little bit of healthy food but everytime I do it I just feel so so dirty. Need to spend 10 minutes washing my teeth afterwards.
I wish I could enjoy going out to eat with my friends like they always seem to do... Oh well... Things could always be worst. I guess I shouldn't be complaining so much.
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wrote on November 13, 2019
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Admin Reply by: Bob
Yes some of us are way worse. But if your limited diet causes you to have social embarrassment then you belong here with us. I can remember every time during my life that I had an experience like you just described. On a few occasions the event would make me almost suicidal. Or at least it was the start of a few days of deep depression. Cheer up you have all your legs, arms, hands, eyes, ears and you don't need help to go to the John. I have found as an adult life is better if all your good friends are told about your eating disorder ARFID. Come join our one of our support groups. Glad you found us.
